Today has been a...rough day. That's putting it mildly- obstacle after obstacle, after obstacle! I've been tested financially, physically and emotionally all in one day. My integrity has been brutally questioned even...but my faith refuses to waiver. I asked to be molded- God's working on the big chunks I guess.
Tomorrow is the last day of this semester. WOOT! Everything on this earth and beyond has to be against me until then. I will finish and I WILL enjoy my Christmas break. School, work, life challenges, nothing will stop me from remembering what season this is--excuse me, who's season this is. I forget to talk about Christmas. I mean, I talk about it.."Have you started shopping yet?", "Have you put up a tree yet?", "Haha, I know! Let's decorate the palm tree!", "I need to learn the words to that carol too"...I conversate about Christmas things hourly, but how often I forget to actually talk about Christmas. It's not completely surprising though. In a society when I take a deep breath after saying "Merry Christmas", hoping I haven't said it to someone who hates the season, it's no wonder I don't think about what it is that's so offending. I'm embarrassed that when I sit here writing this, I don't know what exactly to say about it. I know the story. But what, this season, should I be learning about Christ? What is Christmas, anyway? I've thought a lot about Mary to be honest. I imagine that no matter how big of a problem the Enemy thinks I am, I'm not carrying the Son of God. lol. And any heat I'm feeling is like a bubble bath compared to what Mary must have faced those long 9 months. Then God softly reminds me that He never gives us more than we could handle-- not Mary...not me.
O.k...whatever it takes Lord
<3 maria
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